Life

My mind is relentless.
Everything tastes so sweet and sour.
It's room temperature.
Static.

Emotion is ever trying.
It induces misery misery misery.
I never really learned how to properly deal with all of this.
My wires were crossed from the beginning.
Who is torn between two like these?
Who is torn for the reasons I am?
Who finds this acceptable rather than appalling?

My emotional structure is faulty.
The pipes leak.
The lights flicker.
The foundation is a sand box.
There are rodents everywhere.
It's all wrong.

Can a man lose his salvation?
Can man's greatest efforts or lack thereof divide him from God's unimaginable grace?
What answer would best serve my life?
What answer would push me in the right direction?
Why am I here?
Why me?
Who am I?

I'm a mess.

I'm tired.