Goodbye Grey

I despise being quick to anger, but I do not know what else to do and how I should react at times. It's all due to sadness mostly, hurt.
I am this terribly mean person lately, having lost love and patience.
I am unhappy in most all areas of my life, and instead of crying out to my gracious God, I just fire up and it's wearing on me.
I see a breaking in my near future.
I really hope it comes because it seems the sweet grey I have kept occupied with for the past several months has gone gone away.
The blazing hot sun is out, and it's no secret how much I despise such a scene.

Good Lord, O' I AM, please please... break me.